(As he transitions to being male, Youth Radio’s Cole Carman, 18, wrestles with whether to retain any part of his female past.)
[caption id="attachment_16980" align="aligncenter" width="800"] As he transitions to being male, Youth Radio’s Cole Carman, 18, wrestles with whether to retain any part of his female past.[/caption]
Earlier this year, I was supposed to get my first testosterone shot, but instead, I ended up taking female hormones.
Last year, when I discovered the term transgender, I was like yes! That’s me! I just wanted to hurry my transition to male -- forget that I was ever female and lose the transgender label all together. But I was thrown off when my doctor handed me a pamphlet about planning for my future fertility. She asked if I was interested in freezing my eggs before I started taking male hormones.
When I chose to freeze my eggs, It delayed my transition more than a month. It forced me to be real with myself, reexamine what it meant to be a man.
The idea of taking female hormones, felt like a huge step backwards. But I did want to have biological kids someday. Which was possible, if I was willing to take some of my past self with me.
I was a different type of man, and having lived as a woman was a part of that. Some men are born and some men are made.
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